Confusing Emotions

I'm realising more and more how little I understand about life...  How little I understand about emotions and how to effectively deal with them!

This morning I cried at playgroup - thankfully Lucy was quite clingy today so she was cuddling me at the time, so I kind of hid behind her as I cried.  Norma came over to check I was OK and said she was sorry she had to head off and gave me a quick hug, she's great.  Other than that, I sort of pulled myself together for the girls' sake and got on with sweeping the floor with one hand while holding Lucy with the other - she really needed to be at home in bed after our big weekend of traveling, but I didn't realise earlier that I was meant to help set up morning tea and wash up, and I hadn't helped with either as they mentioned it after other people had already done it, so I needed to at least do the sweeping.  I'd made cake and brought the 1 litre of milk which was a bit of an effort - sounds ridiculous, but it's a challenge on top of everything else, but I didn't realise there were other things I needed to do while I was there.  It's written on the roster you receive at the beginning of the term but I hadn't really paid attention - too much else going on I guess.

I'm confused and frustrated by my emotions.  I guess that's why I need to put my hope and trust in God who is a Solid Rock, and who doesn't change from day to day like my emotions do.  In fact, I think my emotions, especially at the moment, change even more frequently than that!

My journey so far is challenging my thinking about how we can all help each other in our journeys.  I've been chatting to another woman in playgroup who I'd really like to encourage as she's going through some tough stuff, but I don't seem to have any resources to do it.  This morning I just felt overwhelmed as I heard parts of her story.  I realise we all have our struggles and difficult issues we're dealing with, but I guess some of our struggles are more difficult to handle at certain times.  

So I'm still processing this morning, but I know one thing I definitely need to do more is take my worries and concerns and questions to God, just like David did in the Psalms.  But most importantly I need to trust in His unfailing love.

Big sigh.